Yes! I may smile most of the time. I may make people laugh by making myself look like a clown. However I also have problems with my family. My biggest problem is I don't have the attention I want when I was young. So I end up being this happy boy on the outside but a twisted retarded fuck in the inside.
What do I care about the world anymore. The world is already dead to me as long as I ever know. What else are there for me. All had been taken away. So take my soul with it also.
and yes! I am a sick bastard!