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Friday, December 21, 2012

My Blank Sketch Book is now Filled by a Page

I had bought this sketch book for almost 2 weeks now, perhaps more.
however, I never knew what to do with the very first page, idea and inspiration doesn't come easy,
especially when I am snowed under so many work of being a final year student.

So I notice some of my friends overseas were making sketches of scenery and buildings, monument on their own sketching pads. Hence I thought why not give it a swirl. I may not be that good of an artist but it's the effort that counts. Keep telling yourself ....

...I can only get better...

So here is the very first page I manage to fill. It's a scene of a garden. There were a lot of dimensional and perspective errors. Practice makes perfect right.



So, remember when I say about my friends sketching the scene of place they are actually seeing with their own sight? and remember when I said I wanted to try doing the same.
Well I made a few adjustments though. First of all at the time I wanted to start drawing, well, the time is actually way past midnight, and it was freaking dark outside, and not to mention cold. So instead of waiting for the sun to show up, I use the power of technology instead!

So google a scenery instead, since I am at it, why not go over the globe to find one. So I assume the picture I googled is one from Paris perhaps. Even I am not sure. So there you go, this is my version of drawing what you see....through a computer screen. *sigh*

one day for sure, I would travel and draw them myself while seeing it in person. 


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Note to you

Oh hi, how are you?

I am fine, but nothing much had happen. been to busy lately.

So bye

Sunday, November 4, 2012

I hope it can be done



I have made all this designs 
and in my head I really like them to be printed on a shirt or something
I really do, but I am no good in that stuff, I only know how to draw yet no clue in business
nevertheless I really hope I can make these..
then I can ware these shirt I made with pride :D


Like my designs? why don't give me some advice and comments while you're at it.
thank you







Sunday, October 21, 2012

Congratulation



Just wanted to say congratulation to the people that have been will be and soon to be graduating.
I wish you all the best in your future.


Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Advises that came to me

This past few days I have been miserable,
yesterday was shocking to me as I have receive something so big that you wouldn't want to bare.
I am more miserable by that time as I keep on thinking about it inside my head.
and in truth it making my head hurts and my heart ache

so today as I was google-ing in search of how to make a letter I saw this on the blog of this lady. this is what written on her blog header-

"Ingatlah tidak ada arang batu yang menjadi intan tanpa melalui tekanan demi tekanan. Hidup yang melalui kesukaran dan dugaan adalah untuk menjadikan kita lebih kuat dan lebih memahami orang lain. Cuma hati yang pernah dilapah yang boleh merasa besarnya erti kasih dan sayang sesama manusia"
taken from and credit to: nalin's blog

it got me thinking... a lot more,
I remember what my father said in every single detail yesterday. 
then I started to imagine the things I should have done, what I should started doing and what I should started leaving behind.

then this morning, I had a meeting with my awesome thesis supervisor. He was just telling stories just then about his past.
but in those story telling times, he manage to give his student some advice about life.
he told him how hard it was when he was studying abroad. He mention the struggle he have to face, the challenges he have to withstand the pain he have to endure.
and how all that makes him stronger.
He also mentions that what ever happens, there will always be your family and friends there for you.

I struck me then. I too need to be strong.  
Perhaps this is Allah's way to show me the path of a better muslim.
He is giving me all this signs at my hard time.
Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Won't 'mengadu' to Abah again.

I don't usually 'mengadu' at anyone about my problems
but this one time I just state my problem to my dad, not actually mengadu
just wanting him to listen..but he call it 'mengadu' still..
 however he must have to tell it to my sister.
if to my mother I can understand but what the hell?
why do he need to tell that sister of mine?


Now I remember why I don't tell my problems to anyone including my parents
not many human can help you. perhaps not anyone in my case.
I better off alone.

usually trust works in both direction but it seems my dad don't trust me that much huh

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

I choose to be a little bit low tech

Hari nie lepas kelas aku kekompleks pelajar UKM.
ada jual-jual disana, orang panggil PC fair, tapi aku rasa macam pasar pun ada juga.
senang cerita aku kesana nak beli mouse baru untuk laptop aku.
aku cari yang murah jer, last-last aku beli satu mouse harga RM18 jer. hehe

nak dibuat cerita aku pusing-pusing lama jugak la kat sana cari mouse murah nie.
last-last pilih kedai yang mula-mula aku cek.

abang salesman tu cakaplah nak apa kat aku.
aku jawab aku nak cari mouse.
beliau serta merta tunjukkan aku mana mouse sambil cakap
"nak yang mahal ke murah?"
memang aku nak yang murah jer lah. sebenarnya aku da nampak dah mouse yang aku nak so aku tenung jer mouse tu dari tadi.
abang salesman tu mmg nampak, lepas tu ckp lagi.

"sekarang orang tak pakai wayar dah, semua wireless jer"

aku terkejutlah juga. aku jawab lah balik

"buat apa nak beli wireless. mahal. elok jer yang ada wire"

aku amik terus ckp aku nak beli.

dalam cerita nie aku saja jer nak cerita yang bukan semua benda baru aku beli tambahan lagi aku nie bukan gila gadjet sangat. tambahan tak tahu menahu pun ada gadjet baru kadang kala

bukan semua benda baru itu baik bukan. ada kala benda yang lama itu lagi menyeronokkan
bukan sebab itu ke kita selalu compare childhood kita dengan budak sekarang?
sebab kita rasa benda yang lama itu seronok dan awesome!

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Penghakiman Saksama

Pernah dengar cerita pencuri bau?

Ini merupakan cerita teladan yang sangat bagus. Aku dengar tatkala aku masih menuntut ilmu dekat Tun Ghafar Baba.

Cerita ini mengisahkan tentang ketamakan manusia serta bagaimana ilmu dapat memberi kesaksamaan serta keamanan.

Cerita ini bermula dengan seorang saudara yang kaya serta bangsawan bertemu dengan seorang ilmuan. Beliau ini datang dengan perasaan marah membuak-buak sambil mengheret seorang lelaki yang kelihatan kurus serta berbaju compang camping serta berkaki ayam. Sesungguhnya bangsawan itu mengheret seorang fakir. 

"Fakir ini telah mencuri dari aku!!" ujar bangsawan tersebut kepada ilmuan itu.

"sabar wahai saudara, biar aku bercakap dengan fakir ini dahulu" jawab sang ilmuan dengan lembut.

"usah betoleransi sama pencuri ini. Hukum saja si anu ini!" gertak sang bangsawan lagi.

"apa-apa pun biar aku soal selidik situasi ini dahulu" jawab sang ilmuan kembali. lantas beliau terus membawa si fakir ke kawaasan yang jauh dari si bangsawan.

Si fakir kelihatan kepenatan akibat diheret oleh bangsawan. Si fakir tidak kelihatan seperti seorang pencuri dari pandangan sang ilmuan.

"ceritakan pada aku apakah yang berlaku dan mengapa kau dituduh mencuri?" soal sang ilmuan.

"aku hanya mencuri bau sahaja" jawab fakir tersebut.

Sang ilmuan tersebut pelik akan jawapan si fakir. Meskipun begitu sang ilmuan mendengar aduan si fakir dengan teliti. Rupa-rupanya, si fakir sedang kelaparan. Kebetulan si fakir ini berjalan melalui jalan belakang yang berhampiran dengan rumah bangsawan ini. Disitu juga hiding si fakir terhidu aroma harum makanan yang dimasak di rumah bangsawan tersebut. Tanpa disedari si fakir telah berada dihadapan tingkap rumah tersebut. Si fakir menikmati sepuas-puasnya bau harum makanan tersebut. Tiba-tiba sang bangsawan masuk lalu belari kearah fakir serta menjerit "Pencuri!".


Selesai mendengar cerita si fakir, sang ilmuan itu terus bertemu semula dengan sang bangsawan.

"memang benar kata kau. Si fakir ini telah mencuri dari kau. jadi apakah hukuman yang kau mahu pada si fakir ini?"

si fakir terkejut mendengar kata-kata sang ilmuan itu.

"aku mahu si fakir itu mebayar aku wang sebagai ganti" jawab si bangsawan tamak.

"baiklah. temui kami esok pagi disini" jawab sang ilmuan semula.

si fakir terus belari ke arah sang ilmuan sejurus selepas sang bangsawan pulang. 

"wahai saudara, sesungguhnya aku tidak punyai wang. bagaimana aku hendak membayar kepada beliau esok?" soal si fakir dengan nada risau.

"usah bimbang aku akan meminjamkan kau wang aku nanti" jawab sang ilmuan.

Pada keesokan harinya, datang sang bangsawan ingin menuntut wangnya. 

"manakah wang aku wahai sang ilmuan?" gertak sang bangsawan.

"ada disini dalam beg kain di tanganku" jawab sang ilmuan.

"berikan pada aku hak milik aku!" ujar sang bangsawan itu lagi.

sang ilmuan terus mengoncangkan beg kain berisi wang itu. lantas kedengaran bunyi wang yang bergesiran.

KACHING! KACHING! KACHING! 

sang bangsawan hairan kenapa sang ilmuan tidak memberikan wang itu tetapi hanya mengoncangkan sahaja.

"hak milik kau telah pun kau dapat" ujar sang ilmuan. bertambah hairan sang bangsawan itu.

"si fakir ini hanya mencuri bau dari kau maka si fakir juga akan membayar bayaran yang saksama dengan apa dia curi, jadi kau hanya akan dapat mendengar bunyi duit ini" jawab sang ilmuan.

bangsawan terus berang lalu meninggalkan kawasan itu. Malu akan apa telah terjadi. Si fakir terpegun dengan kebijakan sang ilmuan lalu beterima kasih pada sang ilmuan itu.


begitulah cerita nya, panjang sedikit, sbb mungkin aku telah exaggerate bagi membuatkn cerita lg menarik. pengajaran yang ada dalam cerita ini adalah kepentingan ilmu serta kepentingan untuk sentiasa berlaku adil dan saksama. Tak lupa juga utk nasihatkan kalian supaya jangan tamak. :D


Coloured skinned wool

I am the eldest son. 

so people would think of me as the role model for my siblings

the good example in the family

But I think otherwise

I am the black sheep of my family from this day forth.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Intentionally Untittled

I always keep telling myself that I have no problems at all. not major problems I mean.
but the truth of it is that is not true, everyday I feel being suppressed by my own family.
I don't really share my problems with my family. and I don't own any friends to share my problems with but I used to always know what to do when I'm mad or sad. well now I just don't know what I am suppose to do. I am messed up.
I really wish nenek was still alive. She may not know what my problems are and I would never told her any of them but her presence was always so soothing for me.

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

This is what I really feels.

Yes! I may smile most of the time. I may make people laugh by making myself look like a clown. However I also have problems with my family. My biggest problem is I don't have the attention I want when I was young. So I end up being this happy boy on the outside but a twisted retarded fuck in the inside. 
What do I care about the world anymore. The world is already dead to me as long as I ever know. What else are there for me. All had been taken away. So take my soul with it also.

and yes! I am a sick bastard!

Dunia pudar dari cahaya

masa aku masuk degree aku kene tunggu masuk 3rd year baru aku ada kenderaan sendiri. selama dua tahun aku menumpang kawan, masa aku bersentap dgn kwn mmg aku berjalan kaki ler nak ke kelas. dah la kelas dengan blok jauh. sampai bilik pasti keletihan. Nak-nak lagi masuk 3rd year nie ha. dah lah kelas pagi petang memanjang, mana ada masa rehat. sibuk sahaja. aku besyukur abah belikan kereta. yelah mintak buat lesen motor dia tak bagi ni kan lg nak minta motor sebiji. aku ingat senang lah ada kereta tahun nie, tp tak kot. nnt masa nak hantar adik aku ke kuis mesti aku lambat ke kelas pagi punya. lepas tu dia mintak amik la konon nak balik rumah study. jadi aku amik lah. lepas kene jadi kuli dia lah ahantar sana ke mari. ada masa dia pulak nak guna kereta. dah dpt kereta mmg tak nak lepas. aku byk kali cuba pujuk abah belikan kenderaan utk aku. ini baru dpt, tp last aku rasa kereta tu adik aku punya pulak. semua benda pun adik2 aku jer yg dpt. aku apa dpt, sakit hati adalah. sumpah aku sem nie mmg sibuk, kene buat kerja ydp lg, thesis lagi, studies lg, kelas lg. penat doe. adik aku mana tahu semua tu. tahu pasal 'Life' mereka jer. aku time matrik takder pun semua nie. adik aku tu baru diploma da nak guna kereta bagai. bukan nya dia boleh bawak masuk kereta dlm kolej pun. kalau kereta tu kene pecah kene curi apa nak buat? 

aku penat kot nak jadi underdog nie. nak kene jadi budak baik. nak kene beralah dgn adik2 all the time. aku ada kehidupan aku sendiri. aku ada keperluan aku sendiri. hari tu aku sanggup lepaskan peluang ke mesir, tipu abah kata tak minat nak belajar jauh2 semata2 nak suruh abah tumpukan duit pada adik nak masuk Uni swasta, sekarang kene buat lg.

dah la aku penat doe kalau ada adik2 mcm nie. kau amik lah semua yang ada. amik lah semua harta ibu abah. aku dah tak kisah dah. aku dah tak kuasa nak ambil tahu. aku tekad. suatu hari nnt aku akan duduk jauh. jauh dari org yg aku kenali. ada masa aku juga tak mahu hidup dlm dunia sebegini. leceh. penuh korupsi dan benda keji. Dunia ini hitam. semua cahaya sudah pudar bagi aku.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

How would my life turn out to be if..

I only manage to experience a tiny bit of the life of a normal high school student,
After a few month in a normal everyday school I got an offer to get in a boarding school, and it has always been with the hostel and night and evening preps afterwards.
On other word at the moment I am imagining what would it be like if I wasn't admitted into a boarding school.


What kind of person I would be?


What kind of people I mingle with?


What would I do during my free time?




Ok then let me tell some of the things I remember when I was in Sekolah Menengah Kebagsaan Bandar Tun Razak before the story of MJCS Grik came to life.
perhaps then you could imagine how could my life would have been.


In this school I was placed in the class which we kids call it the 'kelas pertama'
usually this is where they place the clever kids lah
well I was lucky to be placed in the fiorst class only because of the result of the previous UPSR
however I won't consider that as being clever ( because my MATH sucks! )
Since my math usually suck so I usually end up to 'kelas kedua' often. haha


I remember there were only two boys in the class. Myself and my friend Amir Safwan.
The rest are a battalion of girls! ( nevertheless they are good people )
I could only remember some of them though. I couldn't remember them all. I got a really bad memory.


I remember also I was elected as 'Pengawas Media'. I was suppose to set up the PA system during morning or evening assemble.
In truth, I didn't do much at all. While some of my friends were elected as Pengawas with their blue shirt.
I didn't go for it though, I thought pengawas were lame then. hehe


I also recall than I was in the RED house. (Rumah merah) for the sport even.
There was this one kid, same age as me but in different class, way back. ( I was in the first calss, He was in last )
Usually people would label student in the last class as delinquents, but I disagree.
People just don't want to get to know them. Ok back to the kid.
I never knew his name at all. 
One day there were a training session for the red house where they conduct trials to choose their representing athletes. So I went to try my luck.
Unfortunately the teacher mention that form one student cannot participate yet. However we can still do try outs though.
So I went to try out 'lempar lembing'. What to call them in English? Spear throwing(?) or is it skewer throwing(?) hehe.
and this kid showed up to try it too. both of us throw at the same distance. Then I try for 'lempar cakera' (disk throw??), and again the kid also tried too.
Again we both manage to get quiet the same distance ( I was better though )
Pretty much everything I tried, he tried it too.
We were pretty much became rivals after that. hahaha.
Every time he sees me he would make the hand gesture meaning "I'm watching you", then left with a smile.
However this is not the sinister kind of smile or what, it is more like a friendly approach. 
He was trying to make friends.


Unfortunately, I never manage to compete with him again since I transfer schools. I do hope to go against him sometime. and I would really wish I at least knew his name.


In my class I was pretty famous with the girls, what do you expect there were only two boys, and I was the loudest among the two. Oh! I forgot to mention I was also the class monitor. haha.
There is this one girl I remember until now even. 


NUHA!


she is brutal! well when she was form one lah. I was told she is now a more kind and soft person then she used to be. ( how did I know? She told me lah. hehe )
I really like to tease her and my other classmate, and in return they would tease me back ten fold!!
but it was exciting. 
btw, Nuha was one of my closest friend during that time, and she still is now. We still contact each other. She said she could always turn to me to make her laugh when she is down. I am glad I could do that for her. 


Not long after that some boys got transferred into our class from another class.
Thank god! some male friends. The guys that got transferred in my class were all awesome!
However I only manage to spend like a month or so with them.
If I would stay longer I would probably be hanging with them every night after solat maghrib or something. haha






I imagine I would be a complete person if I would never got the offer to go to the boarding school.
I always thought could that life be more exciting. What would I be doing now? Where would I be standing now?



Whatever it could be I know it would be great as long as I am happy. Because being offered into MJSC grik then to MJSC TGB, is a wonderful experience. Which ever path I would take I know it would be a good experience because that is life. Full of unexpected things for us to remember in our old days.


Alhamdulillah. 




so what is your "How would my life turn out to be if.." moments? 

Friday, July 6, 2012

Encounter

Recently I got to meet some of my friends from TGB.
Man! it was a very long time since we are all were having classes together.
almost 4 years now!

well one of them even get engaged and married recently too.
Congratulation to the newly weds. I hope your relationship would bare happiness in dunia and akhirat

I even manage to meet up some of my friend which currently studying abroad which are having their summer holidays.
I even got a little token from one of them too.


thanks again haris and bee for the lovely evening. thanks haris for the red phone booth.

(I willl finish this soon enough. I'm tired. so I will just edit this post tomorrow or whatever)

Monday, June 25, 2012

What I have


My sister got a new phone.
she now have a blackberry bold
and my brother he already have a Samsung Galaxy II
my other little bro have lots of things he like to eat
and my little baby sister have all the attention she wants
well me?

I STILL HAVE EXAMS!

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Scumbag reason

The only reason my siblings want be going back home every weekend
is not to spent time with me or they miss me or anything
they just want me to bring back home the new episode of running man every week

bukan best mana pun

Friday, May 18, 2012

Its not the matter of date


HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY 
and 
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY
Here is a bouquet of flower

I know it's already late, but the hell with the dates and all
I don't need special day to appreciate my mother and fellow educators

but honestly, thank you to my mother father family  friends and teachers
I am who I am now because of them.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

I am dull

Recently I went out with some old friends from KMM
actually it was yesterday, well what in today's entry, let just say I get to know myself better
so that night I was with Luqmal, A'an and Izzah.
we did a simple meeting in some sort of kedai makan.
so we basically lepak and talk.
perhaps I need to rephrase, they sat there lepak and talking.
Me on the other hand, I stayed quiet most of the time.
I know I am a shy guy, and I know I can be too quiet or too loud at times
but I usually stay silent among people new that I don't know
but the problem is I know Luqmal, I know A'aan, I know Izzah too.
but still I don't know them well that I cannot talk much when I am around them.

. . . . . . 

they talk about all sort of things. but still I cannot let my self join the conversation.
I don't know how and I lack of knowledge. to be honest I don't know a whole lot of things.
and I can assure you the things I know is not interesting at all.

However the three of them seem cool altogether. We were all friends but somehow I felt like a stranger.
Each time I look at them I see them as the cool kids of the school.
well me, I am just a nobody. I had always been that way, an invisible below average student.

They are so cool but I am so dull.

Sorry guys, I was so dull that bight. I am really a boring person ain't I?
haha. Ironic, A'an once told me about some people they tend to only make friends when there are there but stops when it ends. for example if we are friends in school, so when the school end we will no longer contact each other anymore. 
I guess that person a'an told me about was me all along. keh keh.

so boring lah you hafiy

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Things over matter

memang tak dapat nak di anfikan lah,
semua orang sayang mak bapak bukan.
tapi tak dapat dinafikan ada masa memang kita tak suka pada mereka sekejap.
macam sekarang aku adalah rasa tak puas hati sedikit.
tapi tak adalah sampai benci

aku tahu ini tak sepatutnya ada, tapi penatlah.
penat tahu jadi anak sulung nie
aku dari kecil lagi abah asyik pesan jadi contoh yang baik pada adik-adik
jangan buat itu jangan buat ini
banyak sangat aku mengalah dengan adik-adik sebab ibu abah
banyak impian aku kuburkan sebab ibu abah

Ada sekali abah nak hantar pergi mesir kononnya untuk belajar perubatan
pada masa yang sama adik aku mahu daftar ke kolej swasta.
maklumlah dua-dua kene guna jumlah duit yang banyak.
jadi abah beri aku pilihan nak pergi mesir atau pergi UKM
aku pilih UKM.
Jujur aku cakap, aku memang fikirkan situasi duit abah aku masa itu, tambah lagi situasi adik aku
dan jujur aku kata nie, masa itu aku tipu abah aku.

Aku kata pada abah aku tak minat jadi doktor. aku tipu di situ.

maaflah abah, Bafiy memang terpaksa tipu masa itu. Sebab Bafiy memang nak Abah guna duit tu pada adik daripada hantar Bafiy ke mesir yang guna RM50k satu sem.

Memang sukarlah untuk aku nak fulfill apa abah aku mahu dari aku.
Honestly, I don't even think I can ever fulfill what my father whats me to be.

I don't hate my father, instead I love him a lot. I am just tired being the eldest son. I am just tired of being me.

Monday, May 14, 2012

hmm~

I need some new stories to come up with. hmm

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Kata orang tua-tua

Orang tua-tua dulu kata :


Kalau kata orang lain bodoh, sebenarnya orang yang cakap tu yang BODOH.




that's why kalau aku jumpa gadis manis nanti aku akan cakap pada mereka bahawa mereka cantik, sebenarnya yang cantik itu aku(?!) hahahaha




jadi kalau aku cakap kau baik sebenarnya akulah yang baik, kau jahat! hahaha.

Remeber

Now remember this : there is always a reason why people started to despise you.


and also keep this in mind : a guy always back up his family and friends, If you messes with their family and friends you are also messing with him.

Take note : guys hate whinny bitch and most of all a hypocrite 


stop being some sort of an eye sore, reflect yourself before you go preaching people of their wrong doing when you are all messed up, full with loose ends everywhere.
Nobody is perfect, and a good person never go on go bragging and says they are a good person.


When you do that you are actually a Bitch. sorry to say it's true. 

Monday, April 16, 2012

Another phone mishap well almost.

On this same day last two weeks I lost something precious to me
well you might have guess it, I lost my phone to a shit hole, literally.
To be honest I still miss the old nokia express music 5800 of mine.

But today another event turn out panicking me like nuts!
After lab session ends I went straight back to college to have lunch.
So when I arrive I wanted to call my friends out for lunch with me so I reach out for my phone.
In my pocket, In the bag, In lab coat's pocket, under the car seat, I seek everywhere and every part of my body and car.
Still nothing. then I realize I lost my phone again.

Trying to keep my cool so I retrace my steps.
I came into conclusion that perhaps I left it somewhere in lab.
So I went back to the lab just to found nothing.

YES! I STARTED PANICKING!

I just lost my phone two weeks ago, and now it is happening again.
So I rush to a friend's room in the nearest college. Fakhruddin's room to be exact.
Banging the door like crazy just to ask for his phone.

I started dialing my number.
and alhamdulillah someone pick up!
It was Fatimah, a colleague of mine. She have my phone.

Well that is all. pretty boring though, just I seems so stupid when I lost my phone.
I guess if you were to see my face back then, perhaps then this would be more interesting.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Friends to someone and anyone

When you became friends with someone or anyone,
you want the friend to ask for help from you
seek advice from you
you wanted them to tell you things, share their problems with you,
it is normal to feel that way in order to feel needed as a friend
Sometimes telling them problems might not make the problem go away
but at least you have someone to tell, and as a friend, they are glad to hear you out

being friends
doesn't mean that you only moments of laughter together
but also the dark moments too
being a friend is wanting to reach out your hand for you friend in times of need
sometimes things doesn't work out, but that doesn't mean they wanted to throw away being friends with you
so don't ever stop being a friend


Same goes to myself.
I wanted my friends to seek for my help even if I might not be a big help
I wanted my friends to tell me things even at times I don't understand what happen 
I wanted to reach my hands out for them even when I can,t see through the dark myself.
I wanted to be friend to you, even if you doesn't see me as your friend.
and I wanted to feel like your friend.

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

What I Sea!


I be damned!
I really love the sea!
However I do not choose to take bath in it.
If it was years ago perhaps I will when the sea was clean and all.
But now no. but still I love the sea.

Monday, April 2, 2012

Bye Bye Me love

They say if yesterday was a bad day, 
there will always be something good tomorrow.
the green is always greener on the other side


well guess what happen to me today when yesterday was so hectic for me
some miracle happen today morning!
yes something really happen!


MY PHONE SLIPPED AND FELL INTO THE TOILET HOLE!!!


what a day full of crap. literally.


I am crying inside. Years of precious memories lost with the phone.
drown in a sea full of stool and droppings.


THIS SHIT JUST GOT REAL!


feel free to laugh, I laugh myself out after I realised what happened. haha

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Quick Twist

It's odd how things somehow flip into the opposite situation from another in just split second, before you we're like super close and all, but the next you we're nothing but anything close.


WEIRD! 

Jujur

Biar aku be honest lah,
kadang-kadang, aku sendiri tak tahu aku orang macam mana.
ada masa bising, ada masa tidak, ada masa happy, ada masa tiada perasaan

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

One!!!!

To me fellow juniors from MJSC TGB!!

YOU GUYS ROCK!!!!

congrats on having the blast result
you make us former student feel proud as hell!

Friday, March 9, 2012

No! Thank You :D








You are my dearest friend.
true story.
I never regret anything I did that day.
so thank you and happy birthday.

sorry, I can't give you anything except for this to you
It ain't that great, but I do hope you will be happy here on after.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Dude! you're awesome!

Da lama aku mahu postkan benda ini, cuma aku saja tunggu tanggal 1 March,
tak ada yang penting mana pun( except some birthdays ) tapi ini tak ada kena mengena dengan tarikh ini. cuma tampak cantik jer sebegini. 


Semua orang sedia maklum dalam beberapa tahun mereka semua akan kumpul pelbagai jenis kawan dan ketemui segala bagai manusia

dan untuk aku pula, aku jumpa ramai orang juga, good ones, loads of them

but..

dalam semua kalangan kawan lelaki yang sebaya umur sama aku,
aku look up pada dua orang kawan :


Muadz Termizi dan Luqmal Hadi



Jangan tanya mengapa, aku tiada jawapan,



but I must say I look up pada semua wanita


Jangan tanya mengapa juga, aku masih tiada jawapan. hehe




Muadz : Me : Luqmal

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Makan Sarapan Weyh!

Semua orang sedia maklum betapa pentingnya sarapan pagi bukan sebelum buat apa-apa aktiviti, pada mulanya aku fikir sarapan ini penting sebab memang pentinglah konon dari aspek kesihatan dan bagai
tapi pada hari ini aku lebih memahami mengapa sarapan itu penting, 


untuk elak MALU dalam kelas atau tempat kerja woi!


haaa...mesti korang pelik baboon ni kan kenapa. nak tahu sebabnya? ini lah aku nak cerita






Untuk sem kali nie memang tak dapat elak lah kan, semua kelas aku start pagi-pagi buta, jam lapan dan mula kelas, yakni bermaksud sebelum jam 8 dah kene bangun dan bersiap la,
sebab dah biasa bangun lambat, justeru makan sarapan waktu makan tengahari jadi aku tak makan dan terus begegas ke kelas,




awal-awal belum hilang lagi mood cuti nie, so the face

anda pun sudah pasti alami masalah begini kalau tak sarapan jugakan, perut ada la bunyi sikit-sikit, tapi untuk aku kali ni memang malang lah, tahu-tahu la, mana nak kawal kalau perut nak berbunyi, tahan kentut boleh lagi, tahan perut nak menyanyi tak dapatkah, jadi dalam kelas perut aku bekeroncong sangatlah kuat benar!


"GRUUUUU~" jerit perut protest lapar!




Sumpah kuat, satu baris aku dengar, nasib yang duduk sama aku kawan kawan aku, kalau awek duduk sebelah kan dah mampus aku, tak laku seumur hidup karang.
tapi malu sungguh aku walupun dengan kawan-kawan, dah macam ada naga dalam perut aku weyh!

please kill me now~



itu lah, lain kali jangan ambil ringan pasal sarapan sangat penting kot, it's the meal of the day, kalau dah sarapan tak makan tengahari pun hidup lagi kot, tak sarapan nanti jadi lah macam aku, face palm muka sendiri jer woi~



Saturday, February 18, 2012

OC Light brown hair


the colour of the hair is different from one in Doodle Scratch

Friday, February 10, 2012

cakap soal cinta sebelum atau selepas

Hari ini punya khutbah cerita perihal benda hot bulan nie
kisah valentine's day...memang tak patut umat islam raih hari tu sbb hari tersebut merupakan hari bagi ornag christian merayakan kekalah islam
bagi yang baru tahu bertaubatlah..


itu bukan apa aku nak cerita sekarang, aku bukannya tahu menahu sangat hal agama, salah cakap nanti kan susah, jadi tanyalah ustaz kalau nak tahu lebih lanjut
aku aku nak sampaikan kali ni ada kait mengait dengan cinta la konon


tatkala khatib beri khutbah pasal remaja sekarang lalai bercinta aku mula la terfikir macam macam dengan otak geliga aku ni


aku ini da 21 tahun, dan selama 21 tahun ini lah aku memang tak pernah bercinta
bukan apa, leceh kot bagi aku cinta ni.


kebelakangan nie ada lah kawan aku kata pada aku


" bila kau nak couple pule hafiy??"


"kau dah kene ada couple weyh hafiy, aku dulu pun tak ada awek juga"


adik aku pun tanya benda sama juga


balik-balik aku jawab


"...............................entah"



aku tak ambil kisah sangat pun kalau aku tiada girlfriend tatkala semua orang ada couple
aku bukan rugi apa-apa sangat pun, untung pun ada mungkin
tapi masa dengar khutbah jumaat aku mula fikir situasi kalau aku couple dan situasi kalau aku dah kahwin
bila di bayangkan situasi dalam otak aku pilih situasi selepas kahwin


aku rasa cinta lepas perkahwinan  itu lebih indah lebih hangat dan segala bagai


manakala aku risau kalau bercouple dulu, cinta itu jadi hangat-hangat tahi ayam sahaja


itu pendapat aku, aku rasa aku mahu alami cinta selepas perkahwinan itu.






call me what you want, I am old fashioned kinda guy
so whatevs!



Saturday, January 28, 2012

tweet tweet

I just started having a twitter account of my own
I am still dumbstruck with Twitter
but feel free to follow me


search for PaperHafiy, that would do the trick 


or just simply follow this link. :D


PaperHafiy



a person owning a blog we call them as a blogger, but if a person own a twitter account..does they call tehmselves as a TWITTERTER??

Monday, January 23, 2012

terengganu

I in Terengganu at the moment, and staying for four days break with my family. Off to make sand castle and swimming with the fishes

Friday, January 20, 2012

blended

I am telling you this now because I just need to let it out


my heart ache so badly


I cannot say it's either regret or guilt or maybe both blended together

Exam Siap!

alhamdulillah selesai juga peperiksaan aku
moga-moga elok juga la result nanti

yang penting aku sudah boleh rehat,
put things aside and just forget about my problems and just be at home
and just relax

Thursday, January 19, 2012

?!

sebenarnya aku tak minat dengar bila orang kata

" korang dua memang sesuai kawan ar!"

biar betul kau nie? part mana kau nampak sesuai? aku tak nampak weyh! aku tak nampak!
sebab apa kau nampak lain sama dengan apa aku nampak


mungkin sebab aku bodoh, sebab itu aku tak nampak
maaf tapi hati aku sakit dan kecewa bila dengar kau cakap begitu,
bukan salah kau pun sebenarnya, salah aku

jadi aku minta maaf

Kau kata kawan tapi aku rasa bukan

tajuk melayu entry English campur2 ok






"..aku boleh ada untuk bila orang perlu dan aku boleh hilang bila tak diperlukan.."


I remember you saying that but I also remember you said something like this before that,


"..if you need a friend, elsewhere but not here.."


I really don't get that actually it is two opposite things.
I thought about this over and over again, and I guess I am making the decision step by step
even if it means to bare regrets for my whole life


I also remember you said I was bias with people
to be honest with you, 


aku bukan orang yang pandai bergaul


I may seem like all friendly at time but most of the time I just stood at the back in silence
I was never good with people and I still am.
so I was not being bias it is just I don't know how to speak or to please you.


you and I are in a completely different league, where you are the top I am much more less than dirt.
how can I compete and make myself as much the same?


I really have nothing to offer or to give to any of my friends especially you but when I do find something that manage to make you happy, "bedebar dan berbunga at the same time", that really excite me when I got to know there is something I can do at least to make you feel that way.
but most of the times my ways are way to off and landed me in such bad position.


I would really like it if you could see me as a friend and treat me as you treat your other friends
I am not asking you to make space for me to be close to you
I am asking you to treat me like a friend, but I never see that happening.
what I see is, the way you treat other people is way more friend-like
yes and to be honest I am jealous of that, but perhaps what I wish for to too much


" aku terkilan bila ada orang nak putuskan perhubungan"


well this is not one of that, this is more like you said, disappearing when you are not needed
aku sendiri terkilan dengan apa aku cuba buat
but ask yourself this, in these couple years are we really what they called friends? or just someone you meet at the streets? Because I keep asking myself that a lot, and the answer never came, just oblivion 


















I never finished reading the last book you lend me. because that time you ask me to stop, and so I stop reading.






did you know we never had much memories as friends? did you know that we only took picture together twice but with other friends in it not the two of us together even once?

Sunday, January 15, 2012

stiff

I got nothing important to say in particular
but I am having stiffness on my neck so I can't completely turn my head leftward
and it is driving me nuts! 
and I am suppose to study for my exams too.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

REWIND : Bring back memories!

I didn't not manage to make a caption of all,
there is a total of 87 picture and there are still some more though
enjoy peeking back to our past :D












irah and anje <3











haha




these are my fellow junior, well bukan jauh sangat beza umur, jadi we are more like friends

my junior, wan


yang cantik itu cikgu Salwa

afiq belalang. haha

they are both good buddies till now :)










except for ainn these are jiran kelas sebelah 517




din

ok I was sweating that time.

ini nasir

acap and hasif

itu bukan nasir, itu syaaban







nana, my friend since gerik













ini ann.bijak dia ni

fithote

auni




kachak

this is just path from block to class

muadz : shazmeer

partition mates. haha

come on, smile lah guys

518 with Cikgu Siti 

afiqah is the girl and the one behind is Naqi

serious hensem! haha

these are my beautiful classmates

na'em and hafiz

on my right rasyid and left ezy

Ainn( btw I lost that bag..huhu)

budak seni visual